god is everthing

i love the world. the flowers and the bumble bees, the wind and grass. i know god created it and he created me. i know i love god but his love is too much for my brain to comprehend. when nobody else will help me up when im down, he is there to put me on my feat. when nobody cares if i am going through pain, he cares and he helps stop the tears of my heart. when i laugh, i laugh with him because he spreads joy throughout me and all around me. nobody else will ever understand why it is god i seek instead of other things. but what i say is this, i am gods child, he is in me, and we speak heart to heart, i grow in him. nobody can ever get in the way of my fathers and my love. it is something that grows stronger over time. he is everything.

colors

if colors could have taste then yellow would taste sour, lemonish. red would be spicy, cruchy. black would be overwhelming and desired. blue would be meloncholy yet transparent. but nobody could ever make a taste so desireable as the color of the ocean and that same color looks glossy and ridged in his glorious eyes. he wont ever be perfect but his eye color is so desireable, so complex yet simple and dramatic... so mesmerizing and peaceful. no flavor or color can compair....

tick tock tick tock

as the life moves on slowly and holds it's breath for something to happen i sit and think. thoughts come and go like the minutes of the clock -tick tock tick tock- but i cant think about him without pain. i, as in me, can not think about him with out the memories that will come to haunt me. if only i could tell him how i feel then the great backpack of time and thought will be lifted off my shoulders but the clock goes tick tock tick tock and the backpack weighs me down. piercing blue eyes and an unexplainable desiring detail about him makes me keep thinking of him but if i dont tell him the clock will stop-- tick tock tick tock.....

how i feel

rain, snow, sunshine... the weather can't stop my heart from beating. but when he's around my heart beats as though in perfect beat with his. his gorgeous eyes are the best shade of blue as if God had made him that way for me. his sweet, short smiles can melt my world in half. i want to wrap my soul around him and never let him go. i love him... truly that's how i feel.

raining

my great-granny died two saturdays ago and i left to plan her funeral. yesterday i went back to school and everything had changed. i glanced over at him to see if he had changed too and i guess he did. mr. happy dude couldnt have given me a dirtier look. now all the pictures of his beautiful eyes and smile have faded. dark rain has formed a black, unclimbable wall between us. at least the sky was blueish but the look only gave way to pain...

clever word scramblers

Dormitory:
re-arrange the letters...
Dirty Room


Astronomer:
re-arrange the letters...
Moon Starer


The Eyes!:
re-arrange the letters...
They See!


The Morse Code:
re-arrange the letters...
Here Come Dots


Slot Machine:
re-arrange the letters...
Cash Lost In Me


Snooze Alarms!:
re-arrange the letters...
Alas No More Z' s


A Decimal Point:
re-arrange the letters...
Im A Dot In Place


The Earthquakes:
re-arrange the letters...
That Queer Shake


Eleven Plus Two:
re-arrange the letters...
Twelve Plus One

clever word scramblers

DORMITORY:
When you re-arrange the letters:
DIRTY ROOM


PRESBYTERIAN:
When you re-arrange the letters:
BEST IN PRAYER


ASTRONOMER:
When you re-arrange the letters:
MOON STARER


DESPERATION: When you re-arrange the letters:
A ROPE ENDS IT


THE EYES: !
When you re-arrange the letters:
THEY SEE


GEORGE BUSH:
When you re-arrange the letters:
HE BUGS GORE


THE MORSE CODE :
When you re-arrange the letters:
HERE COME DOTS


SLOT MACHINES:
When you re-arrange the letters:
CASH LOST IN ME


ELECTION RESULTS:
When you re-arrange the letters:
LIES - LET'S RECOUNT


SNOOZE ALARMS:
When you re-arrange the letters:
ALAS! NO MORE Z 'S


A DECIMAL POINT:
When you re-arrange the letters:
IM A DOT IN PLACE


THE EARTHQUAKES:
When you re-arrange the letters:
THAT QUEER SHAKE


ELEVEN PLUS TWO:
When you re-arrange the letters:
TWELVE PLUS ONE

the wheel of life

spinning, dizzy while watching the people of this world rotate their life in harmony with the wheel of all life. all life....... except mine. i am trapped on the wheel itself spinning, getting dizzier. nothing is going my way. the wheel increases speed...

waiting for the devil

i know my true love will never love me. i know his hate will melt my heart. i take my hope and flush it down the potty. as i scream i notice the devil comes closer and closer to my heart. i take the devil's hand and watch the devil burn my love's picture. i take the knife again...

whisper cry

as the world makes noise around me the only thing i hear is a cry. it's a soft voice, crumbly cold and sad. as the world screams i hear only the one whisper. i am drawn to the cry. it slowly pulls me toward the person with the soft whispery cry.but if i go, i too, will whisper cry forever...

the darkness of roses

blood droplets ooze down my pale skin and i drop the rose. i pull the thorn from my finger and throw it in the light. i sit back down next to the rose bushes. i hide in the shadows with the darkest blood roses. i wipe the blood off my arm and glance at the rose on the ground. in the darkness i cry with the roses...

we weep together forever. i stare at the light. im in the darkness of roses...

heart

my heart races through my head. it destroys my thoughts and all i can hear is the thumpedy thump of my heart. you walk by, thump thump it goes again. it creates sadness that fizzes inside me. all i hear is my heart...

the road of everlasting life(sequal to "road of shame")

i sold all my shame to that crusty devil on my shoulder. i asked god to forgive me for all the blood that i shed. i took the needle from my compass, using grass as the thread i sow up my broken heart. as i walk down this road of everlasting life and i see the sun go down with my sin...

the road of shame

the devil on my shoulder, the knife in my hand. blood flows from my broken heart that is now sunken on the ground. my brain is scarred with the memories of my past. as i cry, the salty tears burn my cheeks. i am sinful, my life is filled with sorrow. i walk down my life road of shame...

friends

friends come and go as they please. no friendship will last a lifetime. it hurts but you move on unless your heart was broken into already. if you hurt a friend you will go through the pain too. if a friend hurts you then never ever hurt them back. dont cry unless you mean it and dont laugh unless your happy. dont move on all the way and dont really mean your goodbye. run with wind and remember your long lost friend...

a lie

a lie is painful and leaves a dark hole,
the hole spreads from heart to soul.
so next time you think of telling a lie,
ihope you remember who you make cry...

touch my heart

touch my heart and i'll touch yours
with a gentle word or two,
for kindness bears the sweetest fruit
that makes our dreams come true.
touch my life with tenderness
and fill my cup with love.
share my dreams as i share yours
beyond the stars above.
take my hand as i grow old
and lead me when i'm blind.
show me that you really care...
good friends are hard to find.
touch my heart and i'll touch yours
a little more each day
until we both find happiness
somewhere along the way.

hmmmm, friendship. a thing to hold on too...

i am keeping your picture in my mind.
your soul is a thing i could never find.
we were a thing to pretend,
but i still want u as a friend.
your voice was there to comfort me,
but comfort and love are hard to see.
i miss you, but we both have moved on.
our friendship was here, but now it is gone.

love, what it means...

what is it?? people say they are madly in love but i think they dont know what it means!! it says in the webster's dictionary:
1. strong affection for another arising out of kinship or personal ties
2. too gross to mention
3. affection based on admiration, benevolence, or common interests
4. warm attachment, enthusiasm, or devotion
5. an object attachment
6. a persons adoration for god
it goes to 20 definitions but i don't want to bore you to death!

well for him instead of saying i love you say maybe i admire everything about you, i have a strong affection for you, or say i adore you! i adore, love, and admire him. he is my hero... just think about it for a minute...

neal and cry...

as i nelt down i started to cry. joy was there but it came as a nightmare. sadness was there in my heart. darkness spreading over the soul. i was in love, i was... but now am not. in these rainy days i neal and cry. love is forbidden.

as darkness spreads over the soul like the longing for joy in my heart, i never smile. salty water rolls down my deep, pale skin. i feel as though im living in black and white. nobody understands me. nobody has the time...

time

i run from the shadow of darkness. i am not afraid. i wish i could go back but if i do i get lost forever. if the shadows would stand still with time i wouldn't have to run. but time only stands still in distant dreams. now without time the shadows chase me forever...

to him... if only i could

when the world has stopped it's last beat, you know how it feels. this is a broken heart that can't be mended. it's last beat depends on you. the battle strikes at the heart only if there is a reason for it being broken. the last beat of the world is over. now there is just a battle with love...

what if i don't want to battle love. my heart may be a little broken but i don't need to battle. i have felt the last beats of the world as though my heart was helping it get a rhythm. boom boom is all it sound like. i cry because my heart can never be mended. i know how the last beat of the world feels but as i think of you the pain sinks lower. the last beat of the world did not depend on me alone. it depended on you as well...

his eyes

as i quote from a wise friend "your eyes will stare into his for the rest of your days". it is so so so true. the first time i looked into his eyes i couldn't stop. if you fall in love with a person you know my wise friend is correct because every time you stare into that person's eyes you get a warm and fuzzy feeling inside. you long for that feeling. every time i look into his eyes the feeling is there. his deep eyes, so wonderful as though he and i are the only people on earth.

in my mind...

in my mind things happen and the world changes in a good way. but out of my mind the world changes in some bad ways and some good. there is one thing that wont change is my heart. hearts are the key to a world undiscovered. but i have one question...

we were given two hands to hold, two legs to walk, two eyes to see, and two ears to listen. but why only one heart? i can answer that. the reason is because the other one was given to someone for us to find.

i found the person many times or so i thought. all of those backstabbing people built my heart stronger then tore it down. i want to find the right person. that could take forever but i am willing to wait. right now i just want to live life and have fun!

still, in my mind i dream of the day and i hope that "he" has my other heart and i hope that he is the one to build me up and never tear me down. for now he is the guy of my dreams. but what will happen tomorrow is still untold...

i cant wait but he is waiting

i cant wait for school to start because he is there. he is just waiting. i am not but still. i wonder what he is waiting for. probably he is not waiting for me but a girl can dream cant she!? i wish right now i could stare in to his deep eyes again. if only he was here but he isnt he is there i am here and he is waiting for life to take a deep breath. isnt that a metaphor or something. if it is what does it mean. maybe he is waiting for the world to wake up and descover life. not just life but its meaning. whatver it is i still remain unoticed in his wonderful world. he stares right through me as though i were a window. he is waiting, just waiting for life to take its deep breath and go on...

to you

as i stare int your deep eyes i see warmth and kindness. it is hard for me to look away. if only i could tell you how i feel. i like you a lot and i wish you liked me too. i may be a kid but i have feelings. my feelings are to strong for me to describe. now all i can say is i love you and i can only say it in my mind...